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| Positivitywow. i am elated. how did i get this way? it's summer. i hung out with great people. i resolved some problems, above and beyond. i played in the dirt, climbed onto a roof, and i have tomorrow off work.
hedonism!
i am lucky or blessed, or some combination of the two.
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| Life Lessonsi was thinking about people today. people who have played a part in my life and all that fun stuff. who've changed me.
anyway, there are infinite things from infinite people. i suppose these are the more definitive. you can try to guess who you are, but i think you'll have trouble figuring it out exactly, because you all are so much more.
you are the reason i play with tools, bugs, and things that are unsanitary. you are the reason i play in the kitchen. you are the reason i know when to tickle and you are the reason i know when to stop. you taught me how to fall in love you taught me how to stay in love you taught me how to be in love. you are the reason i have music and you are the reason i have religion and you are the reason i have hope. you told me that feelings should never be invalidated, and i try to live by that; you said that friends are forever, and you proved it. you showed me how to grow up, you made me want to stay young. you showed me how to ask questions and dive in. you showed me what it means to be loyal. you taught me to put myself first sometimes, and yet you put others first all the time. you pointed out that i chew food oddly and i am a know-it-all and a big, big klutz but for some reason that seems to work for us. you drove me crazy and forced me to learn how to choose, and i am all the better for it. you taught me how to apply makeup. you told me i never had to wear it. (and i usually don't.) you showed me how to be vulnerable and you taught me to keep my mouth shut (but i'm still working on that one). you showed me that we are the sum of our parts, and more. you told me that i am enough.
i don't know how it is that i am surrounded by people like you and i am still so utterly clueless. thank you all, for prodding me in the right direction.
[hello, senior year...]
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| Autogenesisi am exhausted. i am sitting amidst boxes, ones that never had lids and rolls of packing tape couldn't contain. the cat keeps escaping and i drank too much last night.
this is where you start over. if we were strong enough, it would happen every day. how weak are humans, that we need eves and physical relocation and all of the rest to slap ourselves in the faces and say, "wake up! the past has happened! embrace the present and the future which will become the present!"
i need a shower. (this one has good water pressure and heats up quickly and the ceiling doesn't mold.)
happiness is always a choice, and i, for one, am saying yes.
[i am lucky to have the emotional support and physical strength of some amazing people. thank you all for helping me make the move.]
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| Making A Home From A Rented House"unpacking the bags and setting up and planting lilacs and buttercups" - mushaboom [[fiest]]
today is a day of beginnings and ends. it is an exciting day. it will be a day of heavy lifting and newspaper wrapping.
it is a great day, because nobody should live with resentment or disrespect. and letting all of that go may be the heaviest lifting of all; but --
that is something i am not taking with me.
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